Teenage....Ambiguous???

Confusion pops up in his mind like the fresh mushrooms,putting up their heads after the early showers.....confusion about life,about reality,about self and the world around....it goes on.......He feels the helplessness of an adolescent tree swaying in the wind changing the direction each time it does,or the exasperation of a cattle caught in the flood,trying to gulp in as much of air as possible...when emerging to the surface.....he is unsure of the beginning....so is he of the end at this age of renniasance,reasoning and retreat.....he is engulfed by darkness ,not sure of where to put his feet next....he is caught in the crowd,quickly loosing count on time....looking around as though trapped in a lone island with a wrecked ship.....crying out ......but of no use.His mind is still searching,trying hard to find the 'secret' of life........he is unaware of who he is,what his role is in this place,why he is here or what he is to achieve.... Curiosity boils within to discover the power inside him and to know about the driving forces.....that drives him through this time of understanding,the time of freedom and fearlessness.Worries about the changing world and burried failures,and unborn careers erupt now and then and nothin seems more important than knowledge of inner self.The world appears indifferent to him,with its people hating to think,to reason and to be different.All their life cycle seems similar......earn a living...mint money.....fill stomachs,make children,have pleasure.....with no thinking,lot of worries and a supressed inner self....He is following the majority .....the fear of being left behind forces him to do so....now he is trying to run ahead of them everytime....Just as small children are left in crushes nowadays.....he has no time to look after his feelings.....the childish ones, of innosence,sympathy, and happiness......which are gifted to man and man alone.......even in this era when machines rule mankind.......


End of yet another note by a mad guy.....always different from the ones around.....the one who goes for the silver lining when others point at the black cloud...........